Can we cut it?

because i took English literature (what is basically 3 years ago) i feel i have a right to use witty and yet cringeworthy puns as the titles of my blogs.
anyway, this one is slightly multifaceted, and i'll tell you why....
a) last friday we were doing dissection, as you do. and Ethel's (NOT ACTUAL NAME) upper arm was way more fatty than her forearm so it was taking longer. Someone had de-skinned it and i got the wonderful job of blunt dissecting the fascia. this means the scalpel goes away- and you use your finger. gloved. preferably.
now there was quite a lot of phenol dripping everywhere and i got stuck on a bit of tough stuff and anyway, to cut a long-ish story short, my finger slipped and i covered my face and lab coat and someone who will not be named (stood on the other side of the body) face with 'bits'. THE MOST DISGUSTING THING IN THE WORLD EVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
b) everyone wants to hack away at people before theyve even talked to them. everyone wants to be a surgeon, everyone wants the scalpel first. what if you dont even need to cut them open? In our weekly cases theres always a psychosocial element, which EVERYONE.HATES. it is annoying because 30% of the exam is on it and you have to find models for it and stuff, and this requires buying the text book for £30. grr. But having also done Psychology for 4 years i get a bit annoyed when this previously unnamed (previously covered in cadaver) dismisses depression as 'not important' because weve 'already done it'. bearing in mind he wants to be a neurosurgeon. doesnt he think these people with brains might actually use them at some point?
c) my clinical partner is finding medicine really difficult and its really nice that he is honest about it. after AUTOPSY FAIL i have to say i have been thinking more about what it is to be a doctor, about all the people you wont end up helping, or in fact will end up killing, and i think were all in one of those situations of almost constant not-knowing if this is the right thing to be doing, or whether we can cut it if it is.
i mean i WANT to be able to do it. i KNOW i can. but you cant be a fair weather doctor who avoids all the death and stuff can you....?



oh wait. psychiatrist. thats right.